A couple of years back when I was struggling with my depressive episodes, I experienced how hard it actually is to get help when you struggle. In Germany when you are depressed you need to “apply” for help. Very similar to the process of getting a job. Everybody knows how hard this is, believe me, getting a therapy spot is harder.
The process involves you getting active as hell, writing, calling and visiting dozens of therapists yourself. Which is pretty problematic when you can’t leave your bed anymore.
Then if you are lucky, you get on a waitlist that will very often last 4-12 months till you get a sample hour with a therapist.
I still remember when I tried to check myself into a psychiatric facility due to my struggle with substance abuse and one of the conditions was that you have to sober for at least 2 months. It was ridiculous. If I would have been able to handle that I wouldn’t need therapy in the first place.
I still remember like it was yesterday getting thrown out of the waiting room because I threw the damn application board at the doctors head after he told me that I either wait 2-4 months to “apply” again or I come back when I am acutely suicidal.
This was the moment I snapped.
I was so upset and disappointed with the western psychiatric system that I decided to go rogue and do my part and become the change that I wanted myself.
I couldn’t stop thinking about the many thousands of persons who were asking for help, and who had to go through this chicane.
I decided that I am going to become the person that I would have needed back then and that I would document my journey so that other people can follow my footprints.
And although changing an entire system is damn near impossible, what I could do was to start with myself, and become the hero of my own story and show you that if an idiot like me can get his shit together, that human transformation is possible
In order to do so I read every darn psychology book I could get my hands on, interviewed hundreds of case studies in order to find patterns to emulate, and patterns to stay away from. I traveled the world, tried out supplements, implemented new habits, created a new world around myself with new people.
Nowadays I am reaching out to world experts and extraordinary people to investigate high performers and happy people, in order to give you guys case studies after whom you can model your own behavior and life after.
The idea of this website is to make you think, and bring you books, tools, biohacks, and world-class experts that will light up your darkness so that you yourself, can go out in the world and kick ass.